I saw January
and the sleep around him
glowed like embers.
I think he lives at aisle ten,
at the Trader Joe’s
in Portland Maine.
He tries to keep things warm
but falls apart crying,
knowing he is who he is.
He smelled like apples waiting to be born.
I know a woman
who can’t escape June;
she bought her heart
at a thrift store
owned by a diminutive
Asian woman.
The Asian woman
smiles every time
Miss June leaves,
knowing her heart will break
because she will fall in love with Mister January.
And then there’s someone else I know
and I hate her.
She doesn’t understand that words
are just pointers,
that the Universe and the people in it
are described by words
but are not made of them.
She flings them
at you
like empty soda cans,
demanding her five cents
after she gives you her ten.
And I hate her.
I know nothing. And that’s the same I knew as when I was born
I’ve come home.
There is an order
and I am part of it
and I will always be a part of it,
no more or less than the Snickers
candy bar wrapper,
making love to the sidewalk
in it’s own way.
That is all I know.
I’m working trying to put this to music- these are comfortable words.
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You are a beautiful person Benjamin Dooling. A person that I scarcely know and wish I knew better. I didn’t know about your illness and I wish now that I’d paid better attention to your posts. I’m listening now though…my eyes are open and my heart is too. Your words move me… so open, honest and bittersweet. Please know that you are not alone in your journey….others will walk beside you & hold you up should you need it. All I can offer you is my support. I wish that I could do more but I can’t. Please know that I am thinking of you…sending out love & support via God– our Higher Power. xo